things im starting to realize...

1. living next to someone who listens to mexican music is better than living next to a 3 year old and a baby 2. the smell of actual shit is better than putting up with my parents bullshit 3. i still have to drive through 88s construction

kelleeeee:

I have the Hills on in the background. yeah yeah, whatever i’ve probably never missed an episode. but, i just heard lauren say, “sometimes friendships have to be sacrificed for the one you love,” or something, you know, profound like that. maybe it’s because i haven’t been in that type of relationship for, oh let’s say six years, but i don’t feel i could ever sacrifice a friendship for a boyfriend. my friends mean the world to me, and so may a boyfriend some day, but i’d hope that if i had to let go of a friendship it would be because i needed to, not FOR my boyfriend. am i too idealistic? thoughts please?

ask my ex best friend.

how did i make it through 4 years of college without ever trying adderall?

so i am the worlds worst procrastinator. i wait, to wait. you know what i mean? so needless to say i had this huge online portfolio due. i tried to work on it earlier today, but i was to the point where id rather stare at a blank screen than read my papers. i actually wanted to start this whole thing yesterday, but i was sick and lets face it who was i kidding. so basically i half assed it for awhile not doing anything constructive for like 5 hours.

around 1030 i texted my friend to see if i could get some adderall. id known a bunch of people who took it to study, and i had also known a kid or two who got hooked on it, but then again i know kids who get hooked on a lot of drugs. anyway he never responded. midnight rolled around and i still wasnt getting anything done so i called him. he said he couldnt get any but after talking to him about what i was trying to get done he told me to come over. 

i showed up and popped what he gave me. at this point i was tired as shit anyway cuz im sick. i smoked a cig and asked him if i was going to freak out. he told me no, and i walked home. 

20 minutes later, i was a new person. i was not only editing but writing some premo shit. i couldnt get enough. i was like fuckin michael jordan, if michael jordan wrote papers. i was hot, and i couldnt miss.

i’m seriously amazed i waited this long, especially with how i am in general. i could have been acing tests left and right. it made me want to keep going and do it better. im not into pills cuz its usually just not my thing but i definitely advocate adderall. i have one more final thursday and sure as hell know what im doing b4 i start to study.

if you dont believe me read this…

http://www.slate.com/id/2118315/

the thing he says about angels on his shoulders is fuckin great.